End of the beginning?
Yesterday I sent off my final IAC ticket on ePortfolio. I have no idea where the past 3 months have gone and how I’ve got to the stage where I’m “ready” to go on call, almost without having realised it.
I’m reassured that there will be a lot of help available, but also by what one of my registrars told me today – that once I’m solo on the rota, my learning will really take off.
It doesn’t feel like I’ve done that much at first, but thinking about it there has been so much new learning over the past few months and a lot of it is starting to feel more like second nature.
For example, I remember how awkward I was the first time I was told, “You can do most of the list this morning, I’ll just watch and do anything you ask me to.” Predictably, it was much too soon and I needed to ask for help 10 seconds into the first case.
But now I definitely feel much more at home in the theatre complex, and I hope that some of that awkwardness I felt at the start of August is beginning to go. I’m acutely aware of how much more there is for me to learn (not least because I’ve recently glanced over the primary FRCA curriculum and am still in shock at its breadth and depth) but I now feel at the right stage to start taking those first few steps unaided (with lots of help around).
So to paraphrase Winston Churchill – it’s not the end, it’s not the beginning of the end, but perhaps the end of the beginning.